to find me a dad

i'm not alive actually. this is a mere playname my mom use to have fun with. she'd always loved this name. alyssa. she likes to pronounce it. its almost the same as alice.

mom was 20 when she created alyssa halqi. but i'm not alyssa halqi, i'm alyssa maznah. halqi was mom's favourite boy-figure when she was in standard 3. the boy was handsome, she said. and that was it. she created alyssa for a reason, to get away from her stalker. after being stalker-free, mom said she thinks the name is suitable and appropriate to be her daughter's name. another name she changed into was ailis saadiah, my sister.

alyssa, ailis and nabilla shares the same meaning. it means noble. mom was so intrigued of the meaning of noble in every languages available so she checked. she even liked the name alice, but it doesnt sound appropriate enough to name a muslim slash malay daughter the name alice. at last, the almost same names were chosen. alyssa and ailis.

mom was not exactly the popular type of girl. however, most of the people in her college knew her. it seems to me like the college was not big enough for mom to hide. but then, mom can just stay in her room if she were to hide herself. mom's friends; aunt mir, aunt gee, aunt bing and aunt yay was almost always with her all the time. what i meant with almost was that they seemed to be forgetting their girlfriends once their boyfriends came into picture. mom was the same.

but mom never stick to one person too long. the longest relationship she had was with uncle AzHaq. mind u, i must make this acronyms because i do not wish uncle AzHaq would know anything about this blog...or me. mom wouldnt let me anyways. anyway, this blog is about telling the stories of my mother trying to find me and ailis a dad. who would he be? is he mr. kawasaki ninja, or mr. someone granny arranged for her from dubai, or is he going to be mr. hang tuah, the ex boyfriend of mom that she once loved? not that uncle jim would like that to happen anyway, he loathes the man.or maybe its mr. AzHaq himself, or according to uncle jim, mr. mcd hakimi. lets just wait and see~